Well, today is just another blah day. I get older and I realize that my purpose for doing a lot of things is just gone. I have lots of plans and things I would like to do but when it comes right down to it, I don't WANT to do anything!  My children are grown and do their own thing and lots of times Tiff just doesn't want to hear my idea about things, although I think I have good ideas most of the time! 

 I am learning to try to pull back on the advice! It's hard!

I made hominy this week and it turned out really good! Tiff and I ate it the first day...Thursday....but it gets old fast! I should package some up and give to David tomorrow if I go to church. 

I asked Tiff to go with me and although I doubt she actually will do it, I am working on her!

A journey begins with a single step, and that would be the first! Please Jesus, let her go just this time, the first time of many?

 

 February 1, 2025

Can't believe so much of my life has passed! I am 75!
The 28th I ordered a new computer that was over $1000 and it came yesterday. Couldn't get it to work cause the cable had the wrong end on it. I went to bed last night depressed, and woke up this morning depressed. I am going to die and I just don't know how it's going to happen!
I apologized this morning to Tiff cause she will probably be the one who finds me and I don't know what shape I will be in. I think, upon thinking about it, that if I ever feel like I am really sick that I'm going to call the ambulance and have them take me away.
I have to go to the funeral home on Monday and arrange my cremation. Tiff is worried, now I know it sounds bad, but she's worried about not getting her life insurance for me because a funeral costs so much!
I told her that I would arrange the cremation.  I just gotta do that!

Maybe like Connie did, I should put the money somewhere where she can find it? But by then the cost might be more? What to do, what to do???

I'll ask Jennie! LOL  That sounds like more what I would do!

I can't find the price of a cremation but I'll go by the Jennings on Monday and check. I hate to keep putting it off and with all Tiff's worries, this would be one thing off her mind. I know she worries about me, but God knows what she would do if I do die!!!

I have to get rid of so many things! I am loaded down with junk and I don't want to be anymore!!!

Help me, Jesus, be the best I can be! Give me faith!!!